One of the most challenging things in my life is accepting the invitation to take the role as a leader.

On the one hand, it feels like something very natural because it is physically passed through in the bloodline of my ancestors.
And because I was born under a star constellation that includes leadership.
At the other hand, it is something I have been struggling and fighting with all my life.
As a child I remember that I NEVER wanted to follow the example of my parents who are self employed and have their own business. And then (with a firm push from my parents in the back) I started my own business ‘Inticura’ 10 years ago.

When I’ve put an end to Inticura earlier this year, it felt like a relief. Finally I was allowed to rest and I no longer had to carry that burden. The burden of being self employed.
This was of short duration because very soon a new project came through me and ‘Touch of Medicine’ was birthed.
And again I felt the inner battle.
The joy of something new that resonates more with my current energy and the old underlying energy of struggle and the burden of being self employed.

The struggle for survival. The struggle to perform. The fear of failing and having lack.

I now see clearly that over the past 37 years I’ve had mainly the mirror of the image of leadership based on ego. Leadership coming from the level of personality.
I also see clearly that I am now in a deeply transforming phase and that I am fully getting prepared for leadership based on service.
And that is a completely different universe. One of which I do not have many examples in my life and so it feels very vulnerable to step in too.
No parents who hold my hand and give their approval. No teachers where I follow their leadership training and give me their permission.

Believe me that the last one touches me the deepest. I see the value of my teachers and the amazing trajects that they offer.
A part of me would love to be part of it, to be included and to rest in the field of support that they create and offer.
Sometimes I swear to the sky why I don’t feel any calling for it and that for God’s sake this has not been granted.
It seems much easier and more pleasant to bring things into the world that are inspired by the same resonant field and with a whole team of support in the background.

But no, another part in me cuts through all these cords, burns it all and always brings me back to my own center.
My own unique authentic source of Being. Every time I hear the voice ‘here it is to do and to be’, ‘here you have your true guidance’.
A voice that has always been there, was on a low pitch and is becoming more and more audible and tangible.
My inner guidance, my connection with God, the Medicine or the Temple.
Listening and moving from this Source is from a level that goes beyond the personality.
For me it’s about serving something that is bigger than what the mind can think of.
It is about being an open channel to bring the energy of Heaven to Earth.
It is about something that gives more deeper inner fulfillment than what can be visible on earthly matter.
It’s about serving Truth.

And all of this requires courage. Courage to witness all the patterns of selfvictimization and codependancy which are holding me back of stepping into inner mastery, owning my power and to really go my own way.

For me there is simply no longer any possibility of compromising in my truth.
Even though I might lose people and places that I carry deep in my heart.
Even though I am brought back to myself every time again, it feels loney sometimes and it feels very vulnerable to bring my authenticity into the world.

And also these are just human beliefs that seem to be true in this 3D earthly existence. Beyond these thoughts there is a deep inner knowing that I am an extension of God who has something special to bring here.
That I am led, guided and supported by a whole team of Spirits, Masters and Angels. That everyone has their own unique mission here and that no comparison is needed. Because everything is guided from the true source of Being with its own specific soul purpose.

And so the cosmic fire continues to burn away what no longer serves me and step by step I grow and evolve further into inner mastery and into the true embodiment of leadership based on service.

It is my prayer and longing to evolve into a time where we can stand side by side with strong equal leaders and actually see and hear each other in the common Source that we serve. With honor and respect to everyone their unique individual guidance on this path.
Pillars that support the same roof of the Temple. Individual, authentic and in connection with each other and the Highest Good.

Amen.

Evelien De Wit
Touch of Medicine

In the middle of last week’s tantra training I became aware of a pain in my ribs on the right side.
The feeling that a rib clenched my liver.
I observed it and went on.
It remained dormant until the day before yesterday when I was giving my sessions with full enthusiasm and the rib kicked in very strongly again.
Auch, yes, a painful affair.

Fortunately I had an appointment with my osteopath yesterday. She looked at me and said that the rib has to do with a conflict with someone who is very close to me and I love very much. As the liver and kidney is also involved there is also anger and fear associated with it.

I knew what she meant as I studied these symbolic interpretations in my training as a health coach.
I started to laugh and told her about the processes and the major shifts happened within myself the last week.
About a sister that I carry in my heart and where there was a conflict-active atmosphere for a long time.
How we went in communication, an opening was created and healing was entering our connection.
About my masculine energy that has laid down its sword and no longer chooses to fight and to defense.
Who now chooses to connect with my feminine energy, to support her, to trust her and to receive her in everything she gives.

With glittering eyes I told her that I am in the healing phase of this conflict. What is now felt in these painful physical symptoms.
She confirmed.
All that long stored old stagnant energy can now leave the body and yes that hurts.
She worked the whole time on my right side, the right wing is now also ready to open completely.
The liberation of my masculine energy which I experienced last week on a spiritual, mental and emotional level is now also descending on the physical level.
A new balance and inner peace in my Holy Marriage is now landing in the matter.

Wow, fantastic how this body and these processes work, don’t they?!
I’m in awe.
Deep bow to Mother Earth, the Temple and the Great Mystery of Life.

And so my flow of action is paused for a few days and I treat myself with a lot of care, love and attention to let the renewal sink in.

What a life!

Evelien De Wit
Touch of Medicine

This morning I was led into the city and I stood between the three towers of Ghent.
I was born here and I can feel that this remains a place of power in my life.
I looked at the cathedral and my inner guidance asked me to go inside. There was a sign that no access was possible because a holy mass was about to start. I asked if I could come in and the answer was no.
A choir was warming up their voices and with my eyes closed I kept on standing in a meditative state.
By partially fasting – I’m doing a liver detox – I feel much lighter and surrendered more to my inner guidance.
I had to keep standing that way, deep connected within myself and sensing a lot of movement around me.
Suddenly I opened my eyes and the same man invited me to come in and to take a seat for the Mass.
I thanked him and walked towards the altar, a serene peace was felt in the immense cathedral and I was grateful that it was closed off for tourists.
I got flashbacks from the past. With school we had a mass every year in this cathedral.
I sat down and felt why I was led here and why I had to follow this Holy Mass (after 19 years or so).

I was taken back to the ceremony that I had in New Mexico on Eastern.
There my Native American Church family asked me in a friendly and curious way some questions who I was, how I grew up, whether I am a Christian and why I participate in their ceremonies.
I felt rather a feeling of shame when I told them that I grew up Catholic.
That on the one hand I enjoyed being in the church, for the ritual of mass, for the holy place, the hymns and because I often felt Jesus with me as a child. And on the other hand that I always missed something and felt that something was wrong.
That the Native American ceremonies are more about truth in my experience and that this is why I feel so much love for their ceremonies and I experience a feeling of coming home.
With this sharing I felt a lot of underlying inner condemnation to the Church as well as a shame and guilt that as a white woman I am benefiting from their ceremonies.
I also felt a pain of the loss of my own ancestral rituals and ceremonies.
The whole night I felt an inner fight and the medicine showed me how my mind was completely confused and showed me the fragmentation in myself.

The day after the ceremony I went out with a friend and felt called to enter the local Basilic of Santa Fe.
Outside there is a statue of a native woman in a Christian atmosphere. Remarkable.
We went inside and it touched me to see how a fountain in the middle of the church served as a waterblessing.
I felt resistance to touch the water and sat in a niche in front of the statue of Jesus and Maria.
The medicine was still tangible and I started crying.
She whispered to me that these are my roots and that it is important to claim this back and to reintegrate it.
Then I felt Jesus and Mary Magdalene talking to me and they said that I know who I am, that they were always with me and that in the meantime I know what is true and false.
That it has nothing to do with the outer form or appearance of the Church or the manipulated Bible.
But that it is about the authentic teachings of the Christ consciousness. And that this become more and more present again and that this is landing more and more into our physical body.

Tears rolled down my cheeks in the cathedral this morning.
What a process, and not just this life.
How much nonsense have I swallowed and believed?
And then the anger became tangible to all systems based on nonsense and manipulation.
There is still so much unconsciousness in the world. So many people who blindly follow and believe so-called higher authorities. So much sense of separation.
Yes, that madness and stagnated energy from my own past can now leave my liver. I no longer have to hold those old templates and carry them with me.

I attended the mass, close connected with my own center and respected their customs and read texts.
I know better now and I felt gratitude.
All I could do was embrace my inner child and acknowledge that it knew the truth all along.
I felt forgiveness and compassion for all those times I left my own inner kingdom.
And I felt lost soul parts integrating again.

The angels around me whispered that everything is just good as it has been and how it is now.
That it was good to end up in these systems in order to be able to experience the opposite.
That I am here to help bring Heaven to Earth and that the time is ready to bring the authentic teachings of the Christ consciousness back to the people.
And that it doesn’t matter what form it has.

When the mass was over I went to the statue of Maria and lit a candle.
I smiled at her and said “To Truth”.

And so it is.
Amen.
Aho.

Evelien De Wit
Touch of Medicine

I am happy to be back in my homelands.
Yesterday evening I already received a nourishing massage. My body was yearning for it!
I knew that I was going to a rather masculine based culture when I left to New Mexico. Intimate touch or openess about sexuality is not part of their culture.
So once more I felt a lot of gratitude that this time I was born as an European woman free to go, explore and experience as much as I can.
Happy that tantra came in my life and that this is helping me to heal and to open myself up in a sacred sexual way.
Really, sexuality is such a very important part in life. And it’s not only about having sex.
It is about reintegrating your natural way of being; showing yourself shamelessly and free from suppressed behaviour.
It’s about conscious relating to your body and your life force energy.
It’s about enjoying life in every possible way and to give expression to that.
It’s about reaching and getting out that full potential that’s deep alive inside of you.

Thank you God(dess) for all the chances and opportunities I get to embrace myself in wholeness.

Amen!

Evelien De Wit
Touch of Medicine

Photo by Jodie DS

10 years ago ‘Inticura’ was birthed into the world ?
I started as a color and style consultant and 5 years later there was a shift to be a Health & Lifestyle coach.

A seed was planted to bring color, light, fire and healing into people’s life. Journeying from the outside world to the inner world and vice versa.

What a ride it was! Many of you have witnessed me during this journey and know what I am talking about.
Holding and running a company isn’t always about ‘rose scent and moonshine’ as we say it in dutch ?

Nevertheless I kept on going with all I had and I learned a lot. With tons of gratitude for the huge loving support of my parents.

But just as the circle of life that births and dies from moment to moment, there is that time to accept when it is time to let go.
2 years ago my soul was already preparing me for this moment. My ego wasn’t happy with that and was still trying out different survival strategies.
But no, the soul knows and will always push through.

So the moment came that I surrendered. I surrendered to Love, to God, to the universe or whatever you want to call it. Because I know my soul has other missions to fulfill.

Today I close the door of the business for the last time and I give this precious creation back to the source.
It served me in a very profound way and also many other people.
Mission accomplished.

Energetically it will keep on flowing, just like our essence can never die, only the form does.

Thank you for having been part of this journey so far. Thank you for your support in so many different ways.
Thank you for your trust!

I bow to each one of you and to my beautiful angel colleagues that were so present with me this last year ❤️

I bow to Life.
And I surrender once more to the unknown, ready to emerge again and again ?
In full alignment.

✨?✨

Evelien De Wit
Touch of Medicine