Am I too much?

That moment that you are so full of love that it flows and splashes out of you.
Your spontaneous innocent self who wants to share all that abundance with the world.
A happy smile and joyful jump here, an enthusiastic message there.
And then it happens.
No reaction from the other.
Or not getting the response you were hoping or expecting for.
Or you get a strange look.
Or you feel the other person going into cramp.

Questions come up such as;
‘Am I too excited? Am I too much? What did I do wrong?’
Beliefs are waking up such as;
“I am not good enough as I am”, “I am not welcome as I am”, “I am weird”, etc …

Do you see it happen?

The mind takes over immediately and creates its own stories and film scenario. And before you realize it, you have lost touch with your heart and you are back in the drama politics called ‘co-dependency’.
Depending on what the other person thinks and feels about you. And the tendency to identify with that, to believe and to make this image true about yourself.

This is how the entanglement in yourself starts.

How can you deal with this?

Pause.
Breathe in and out.
Observe the action of your mind. Let all those thoughts and feelings pass by just like you are watching a movie.
Breathe in and out.
Keep the focus on the connection with your heart.
Feel it.
Stay true to your love and your innocence.
Do not allow and do not give permission to anyone to distort your love experience because of the projection of their own lack of love.
Breathe.
Remember that nothing is what it seems. Breathe.
You are in charge.
Love is an ungoing choice.
You are here in this human experience to discover that YOU are the love that you’re waiting for.
You are not here to get love.
You are here to discover and to experience the depth of love that YOU already are.
And to share this love with the world.
Breathe.
You are the embodiment of Love and that is what you radiate.
Breathe.
Forgive yourself, every time again.
Breathe.
Keep on being Love.

Amen.

Evelien De Wit
Touch of Medicine